NTI John ends with a lovely description of the awakening process from identification with the false self to realization of unity consciousness. It describes the experience as a “merging” process. At first, we listen for guidance as if it is coming from outside of us. Then, we begin to recognize it is not coming from outside of us. Instead, it seems to move in us and through us naturally. Eventually we see ourselves as That, which we used to reach for or resist.
NTI John points out that until the merging process is complete, there will be resistance and doubt. There will also seem to be “tests,” which are situations when we are severely tempted to fall back on our old habits in order to feel safe. These “tests” do not come from truth. There aren’t any “tests” we have to pass to realize truth. The “tests” are times when the ego is screaming for us to turn away from truth. The “tests” come from our remaining resistance.
Today’s reading says:
But if you open to Me, even within your moments of doubt, the miracles that you experience will convince you that your faith is well placed, and you will continue to follow the guidance of the Light.
In other words, we are awakening to benevolence. By not returning to the ego during the “tests” of resistance, we discover the benevolence that is natural to truth, and we learn to trust it more. This positive reinforcement, which comes naturally when we do not return to our old habits, encourages us to let go of ego and merge with the light.
Thoughts of Awakening # 107
You have no obligation
except to be love.
And ‘be love’ is all that you are
and all that you can be.
You have no obligation
to see what I say is true,
but the joy of your heart
is to know you as I do.
To know that you are love
without obligation to be different than you are,
observe everything without judgment
and watch how it all unfolds.
~From our Holy Spirit
Homework for this week
- Practice daily meditation for 30-60 minutes each day.
- Practice the “Loving All” Method.
- Thoughts of Awakening, 106-112
- Read NTI John Chapters 19-21 & Acts Chapters 1-5.
- The reading shared on Tuesday night was from The Transparency of Things by Rupert Spira, p. 128- 136 or for Kindle users the Chapter titled Knowing Is Being Is Loving & Changeless Presence.
- Exercise to practice: Everything you know, you know because it is in you. You could not know it if it was not in. you. This week, every once in awhile, notice every now sounds, sights, sensations, anything in your awareness and know that the only way you can be aware of them is if they are in you.
