Rev. Helen Avery is an Awakening Together Ordained Minister. She shares weekly in our Sanctuary with a half-hour of heart-felt deep-diving into truth, love, and awareness. This candid sharing is a time when Helen explores different modalities and teachings with various non-dual teachers and how the real-life application of those particular teachings is currently showing up in her life. She shares about experiences from her path of awakening including the demonstration of how to utilize these helpful processes and spiritual tools. In her most recent Awakening journey she discusses radical truth and wisdom from teachers such as Mooji and Helen Hamilton.

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In the last couple of days, we’ve paid attention to lower and higher vibrational choices. In today’s reading, you will also notice individuals making lower and higher vibrational choices. However, yesterday’s tip said:

Reality transcends all vibrations and all experience.

Today, we will get a sense for reality.

In NTI Mark, Jesus goes through initial purification, clearing away many beliefs and much of his conditioning, during the 40-days and 40-nights in the desert. NTI Mark doesn’t go into detail about Jesus’ initial purification. The majority of NTI Mark is focused on the phase that follows purification, which is called “merging” in NTI. Merging is the process of awakening to consciousness as Self.

The merging process can be gradual or it can be abrupt. In NTI, Jesus experiences a gradual merging, which occurs between the initial purification in the desert and the night of his arrest. The practices that facilitate Jesus’ merging are discernment, kindness and surrender. Jesus also took time for private contemplation and meditation.

In the Garden of Gethsemane, just prior to Jesus’ arrest, fear drives Jesus to surrender more deeply than ever before. On that night, Jesus surrenders his sense of self-existence, which is known as “will.” This surrender was the final death of the ego. It was also awakening beyond consciousness to absolute reality, which is the First Principle of God. To think of Jesus as a man after this point is a mistake. He is no longer a man. He is life-awareness.

There are a few sentences in today’s reading that give hints about the life-awareness that appears as Jesus. Instead of seeing the physical scene directly, it is moved by the highest vibration of code although it is simultaneously beyond that vibration.

For example, Jesus does not see men bullying him. He sees love desiring love. He does not see crucifixion. He is “fully consumed with love and gratitude and reality.”

As the scribe of NTI, I experienced a vision of Jesus on the cross. In that vision, I was Jesus. In other words, the awareness that I refer to as “I” saw through the eyes of the Jesus-body and knew the realization that was known. Let me describe that vision to you:

I was hanging on the cross, meaning the body was hanging on the cross. The body’s eyes still saw in the same way they have always seen, so the body saw soldiers casting lots for clothing; a woman known as “my mother” bent over in agony and surrounded by friends; men dressed in priests’ robes discussing what they saw; some angry faces, and rocks being thrown. The body also saw people going in and out of Jerusalem through a nearby gate, going about their normal day’s activities. This is what the body saw.

However, I was not connected to the body’s sight at all. There was no mind thinking about or interpreting what the body saw. It is fair to say there was no focus on these sights, just as you typically put no attention on many unimportant sights and sounds that your senses pick up on everyday.

My awareness was completely filled with love-gratitude-joy as one thing, not three. And I knew reality, which was nothing that the body sensed. Although the body’s eyes saw physical sights, I was not aware of those things; the body was aware of those things. A scene was present, but I was not part of that scene. I wasn’t aware of “I” or “me,” and I wasn’t aware that there was no “I” or “me.” Those concepts were non-existent. There were no concepts and no thinking. There was only direct knowing (as contrasted with indirect knowing, which isn’t knowing at all).

That is as far as I can go in describing the vision. I knew the vision was a taste of full enlightenment, and I knew enlightenment had no relationship to this world. As Bernadette Roberts described it, “It is a different dimension entirely.”

Thoughts of Awakening # 58

You are as God created you.
This statement is forever true.

Rest in acceptance of this fact,
and ask the Father,
“What is your Will for me?”

The Father will answer.
The Father will lead.

~From our Holy Spirit

(Note: This tip is longer than usual. If you are short on time, read the tip this morning, and then read from NTI later today.)

Yesterday we contemplated contrasts, so we can learn to recognize lower and higher vibrational choices. Today, we continue that same contemplation as we watch someone who sensed a pull toward a higher vibration, but then followed the lower vibration instead.

The person I am speaking of is Pontius Pilate, the Roman governor of Judea. Pontius Pilate had the power to crucify Jesus, to imprison him or set him free. Other than the Roman Emperor, who was very far away and unaware of this little incident in Jerusalem, no one had authority higher than Pontius Pilate. He was free to make any decision.

As you read today’s story, notice that Pilate felt intuitively that Jesus was innocent. He also felt curious about Jesus, and interested in him. Something in him wanted to talk to Jesus more. If Pilate had followed this feeling, he would have followed the higher vibration.

However, the lower vibration showed up in thought too. It showed up as concern about what ‘others’ think of ‘me.’ It was the shadow of a thought we learned about earlier:

I am separate and different, and for this I am guilty [unworthy, less than]. I must protect myself, for when my guilt is unmasked, I will suffer endlessly. I will be cut off from all that is and from life itself.

Pilate believed that idea and followed the lower vibration.

Another opportunity came. Pilate had the authority to release Jesus or another prisoner, Barabbas. His genuine feeling was to release Jesus. That was the higher vibration.

However, once again a lower vibration arose. It was another idea that we’ve looked at recently. It was the idea that rules need to be consistent; precedent needs to be followed. Although Pilate had full authority to do something different this time, he believed consistency is what mattered, and he condemned Jesus to die. (Reference the tip for Day 46.)

Some people say that Jesus’ crucifixion was God’s will. Others say the script is written and cannot be changed. However, the Code says something different. The Code teaches that the script is always being written.

Here’s a simple review of the Code:

The thoughts that come into the mind are part of the code. However, the code is multi-layered, so there are higher vibrations and lower vibrations. When we choose the lower vibrations, the script is written according to the lower vibration. When we choose the higher vibrations, the script is written according to the higher vibration.

As we continue to choose lower vibrations, we are more likely to choose lower vibrations again. If we choose higher vibrations, higher and higher vibrations become available to us. Higher vibrational choices lead to true perception.

If we look at the story of Jesus’ arrest and crucifixion, we see that many characters in the story made choices along the way.

• Judas decided to turn Jesus in so he could find out if Jesus was genuine or not.
• The apostles chose to follow intuition, and they secured a safe place for Passover.
• Jesus was overcome with the fear of death, but he chose to surrender completely.
• At the time of Jesus’ arrest, many apostles listened to fear and ran away.
• One apostle stayed in the garden in silence.
• At Jesus’ trial, Judas saw he’d made a mistake and believed he was guilty.
• At dawn, Peter saw he’d made a mistake and he went within seeking clarity.
• Some of the chief priests listened to Jesus and did not join in the rush to have him crucified.
• Most of the chief priests did not listen to Jesus. They rushed to Pilate to demand crucifixion.
• The crowd outside Pilate’s palace decided to follow the lead of the chief priests and demand Jesus’ crucifixion.
• Pilate felt that Jesus was innocent and intriguing, but he became worried about what others would think and chose to condemn Jesus to crucifixion.

If you look at this chain of events carefully, you’ll notice that a few people made higher vibration choices, but many stayed with the lower vibration. The script was written from the sum of those choices.

Imagine if Judas had decided to rest-accept-trust while in fear instead of deciding to turn Jesus in for a trial. Imagine if more chief priests had decided to listen to Jesus at his trial. What if the crowd outside Pilate’s palace had simply observed instead of joining the chief priests in their cry for Jesus’ crucifixion? Or what if Pilate had listened to his own inner prompting to set Jesus free?

Or, looking at it another way, what if the apostles had been afraid to trust intuition while looking for a room for Passover and had selected someplace that was associated with them? Is it possible the temple guards would have found Jesus earlier and the entire evening would have unfolded according to a different script? Or what if Jesus had listened to his fear in the Garden of Gethsemane?

Once a devotee asked Ramana Maharshi, “Is not this world, and what takes place in it, a result of God‘s will? If so, why should God will thus?”

Ramana Maharshi answered:

“God has no purpose. He is not bound by any action, and the World‘s activities cannot affect him. Take the analogy of the sun. The sun rises without desire, purpose, or effort, but as soon as it rises, numerous activities take place on earth. The lens placed in its rays produce fire, the lotus bud opens, water evaporates, and every living creature enters upon activity, maintains its activity, and finally drops it. However, the sun is not affected by any such activity, as it merely acts according to its nature by fixed laws, without any purpose. It is only a witness. So it is with God. …

God has no desire or purpose in acts of creation, maintenance, destruction, withdrawal, and salvation, to which earthly beings are subjected. As beings reap the fruits of their action in accordance to natural laws, the responsibility is theirs, not God‘s. God is not bound by any actions.”

When one understands God as the primordial, the First Principle of God, one realizes that God is the openness and essence that permits the appearance of the world, but God has no hand in its creation or its happenings. Consciousness itself is responsible for the world, and we are consciousness.

The higher vibration is made of consciousness, including thoughts, emotions and physical manifestation. The lower vibration is also made of consciousness, including thoughts, emotions and physical manifestation. It is all the play of consciousness, created in each moment through the play of consciousness. None of it is real—it is not the First Principle of God—but all of it is experienced, since consciousness is the realm of subject, object, and therefore, experience.

Do your choices matter?

Ultimately, your choices do not matter, because they do not affect reality. You are never guilty or innocent because of your choices, since they have no actual effects.

At the same time, your choices do matter, because they keep you at a lower vibration or help you raise to a higher vibration. At the lower vibration, you suffer more. At the higher vibration, you become increasingly happy and unaffected until you see with true perception.

Also, your choices matter because they are a part of consciousness as a whole, and so your choices help to write the script that is constantly unfolding as the world.

In short, happenings in the world happen the way they do, because everything that happened before led to the present being as it is. It is a mistake to give credit or blame to God for anything that happens in the world, and since innumerable inputs from consciousness lead to the script being as it is, it is also a mistake to give credit or blame to any one cause (any single decision, person or incident). It is best to accept the present as it is, and make the highest choice available in the moment.

Our choices reach higher or our choices remain lower, and experience unfolds according to the vibration of our choices. However, reality is something different entirely. Reality transcends all vibrations and all experience. Our choices affect our experience, but they do not affect our reality.

(Note: I recommend you print this tip for future reference.)

Thoughts of Awakening # 57

Holiness is what you are.
Un-holiness is what you believe.

What you are cannot be undone,
because it is truth.
What you believe must be undone,
because it is not truth.

Give your willingness
that untruth be undone
from the mind.

~From our Holy Spirit