Note: If desired, watch all of Acts 23 from the Visual Bible movie, Acts.

Yesterday’s reading was about the third phase of the spiritual path, which is service and merging. As mentioned, the third phase is a very attractive phase, and many people want to jump to the third phase without completing purification. However, purification is necessary in order to intuit spiritual intuition without confusing it with ego.

Since purification is vitally important, today’s reading returns our attention to purification. Today’s reading is a serious reading. It points out that the purification stage can, at times, get “very, very tough.”

That was my experience, and it will most likely be your experience too.

The seriousness of today’s reading isn’t meant to scare anyone. It’s meant to prepare you. To “prepare” is to make someone ready to do or deal with something.

How does today’s reading help prepare you for purification?

If you know there are tough times ahead, when the tough times arrive you can see them as a normal part of the process. Knowing tough times are normal can help you move through them more easily.

Today’s reading also explains why the purification phase gets tough. Resistance makes it tough. We are afraid that the darkness in the mind is the truth about us, and so we resist looking at it. Yet, the darkness needs to be seen so it can be healed.

The reading says:

… cruelty lives in you as a wish. It is important to note that the cruelty is a wish, for a wish is not what you are. A wish is what you are not, but what you may pretend to be.

When we are cruel, we get pleasure from causing pain and suffering in others. That isn’t very pretty to look at, but in one way or another, we’ve all been cruel.

Why do we wish to be cruel?

Cruelty is the ultimate divorce from oneness. When we are cruel, we feel powerfully separate. Cruelty inflates the ego.

Today’s reading encourages us to look at the darkest aspects of the mind. It acknowledges that we may be afraid to look, but it encourages us to overcome that fear with a strong desire for our spiritual aspiration. It is as NTI Luke 22 said:

Great fear is nothing more than great resistance.
And so the means for overcoming great fear is great willingness.
Great willingness comes from remembering what you want.

Note: If desired, watch all of Acts 22 from the Visual Bible movie, Acts.

Today’s reading points toward the third stage on the spiritual path, which is service. It is through service that merging occurs.

Earlier this year, we read NTI Mark.  It was a story about the third stage of the spiritual path. As a reminder, here is an excerpt from the tip for NTI Mark 1:

NTI Mark, Chapter 1 is the beginning of the story. Like any beginning, it lays out the details needed to begin the story. Some of the details regarding our role model, Jesus, are:

• Jesus has decided on the purpose for his mortal existence. It is truth realization. This purpose is the leading factor in his life.
• Jesus knows that God is found within, so his focus is within, which includes focus on spontaneous guidance. Jesus lives a surrendered life. He is led. He does not make decisions for himself. …
• Jesus lives from kindness and love. He is the servant of everyone he meets and the servant of Spirit within. Through service, which is not self-will, Jesus of NTI will follow spontaneous guidance to the end of the sense of self.

We enter the third stage of the spiritual path when enough purification has occurred that we are able to more easily  intuit and trust guidance. As we move through the third stage, our ability to intuit and trust guidance is perfected to the point that we no longer feel surrendered. Instead, we feel in tune with our natural Self, which is the invisible power of all things.

Many people want to jump to service without completing phase two, purification. Purification is absolutely necessary in order to clear out enough ego to discern guidance clearly. Without purification, one is less likely to know the difference between ego and spiritual intuition.

However, it’s also true that the first three phases overlap to some degree. When I was in my five year purification phase, I was also in service. During the service phase, some purification continues.

The difference between phase two and phase three is the emphasis. In phase two, the emphasis, and necessarily your primary focus, is purification. Service occurs naturally as you focus on purification. Here is a quote from Nisargadatta about service during phase two:

The right use of mind is in the service of love, of life, of Truth, of beauty. … You must begin in yourself, with yourself – this is the inexorable law. Attend to yourself, set yourself right – mentally and emotionally.

In phase three, enough purification has occurred that the emphasis  can move to intuiting guidance and following it. Again, that is the demonstration we saw from Jesus in NTI Mark.

Note: If desired, watch all of Acts 21 from the Visual Bible movie, Acts.

Today’s reading says:

Whenever you are tempted to do anything, question whether it is temptation or prompt. Temptation comes from fear, the ego, and the desire for self-will. A prompt is given by the Holy Spirit through your willingness to listen to Him.

As mentioned yesterday, you are already following spiritual intuition when you use inquiry to discover the author of your thoughts. That is discernment.

On Day 127, I told a story about an experience I had with a specific spiritual teacher. In that experience, I made the decision to leave that teacher, because he wanted me to follow him instead of following my own intuition.

Let’s look at two possible scenarios regarding that story in order to see how root cause inquiry can help us determine the authority of an idea.

Possibility #1:

Let’s imagine I am in relationship with a teacher. He has told me that what I think is my intuition is actually ego, and he wants me to disregard my intuition and follow him without questioning him. When I hear that, I think, “I need to leave.”

I take that thought into root cause inquiry to discover the motivation. I ask:

Why do I want to leave this teacher?

Am I afraid of what will happen if I stay?  – Yes.

What am I afraid of? – I am afraid of having to give up everything that is important to me.

Does that mean I am trying to protect myself? – Yes, I feel I have to protect myself. I feel at risk.

Is the desire to protect myself ego or Spirit? – It is ego.

So, who is the author of this idea? – Ego.

So, what am I going to do? – For now, I will stay. I will stay and continue to inquire into my thoughts and motivations so I can get clarity on my authority from moment-to-moment.

Possibility #2:

Again, let’s imagine I am in relationship with a teacher. He has told me that what I think is my intuition is actually ego, and he wants me to disregard my intuition and follow him without questioning him. When I hear that, I think, “I need to leave.”

I take that thought into root cause inquiry to discover the motivation. I ask:

Why do I want to leave this teacher?

Am I afraid of what will happen if I stay?  – No.

Do I feel I need to leave to protect myself from something? – No.

Do I feel that I need to trust this feeling to leave? – Yes.

Do I know what will happen if I leave? – No, it is totally unknown.

Am I trying to avoid or escape anything? – No, I don’t feel like that is the case. It just doesn’t feel right for me to stay anymore. It is time to go.

Do I feel that I need to take this step and trust the unknown. – Yes, I need to take this step and trust the unknown.

Does this willingness to trust come from ego or spiritual intuition? – The ego is fear, guilt and defense. This willingness to trust the unknown feels like spiritual intuition.

So, what am I going to do? – I will take this step, leave this teacher, and stay carefully tuned in to guidance.

In phase two, it isn’t the action that’s important. It is the motivation. In Possibility #1, the motivation to leave was ego. In Possibility #2, leaving was the guidance that came from spiritual intuition.

We can’t look at the action and determine if it’s ego or intuition. We have to look deeper and discover the motivation.

Important note: This form of root cause inquiry is always about my motivation. It is never about the storyline in the world. For example, in the possibilities above, there aren’t any questions about whether the teacher is genuine or not. To try and determine that as the basis of my decision would be looking out instead of in. If I look out instead of in, ego (judgment and thinking) will be the authority that guides me.

If you’d like to review the reasoning of ego and the right-reason of Holy Spirit, read NTI Acts 19 from (v23-41) through the end.

Note: If desired, watch all of Acts 20 from the Visual Bible movie, Acts.

Today, we will begin reading about the second phase of the spiritual path, which is purification. NTI calls it “letting go.” During phase two, we let go of the ego as our authority. We do that by embracing spiritual intuition as our authority.

It’s important to remember that the human always follows an authority. The human is authored, and it has an author-ity. The human believes it is an independent being, but that isn’t true. The sense that ideas are “my thoughts” is ego. Ego is the sense of an independent and separate self.

When we look at thoughts to determine their authority, we are already following the authority of spiritual intuition. Spiritual intuition guides us to discern authority and make a conscious choice. Ego simply believes “I am me” and “I am my own authority.”

Discernment is a key aspect of phase two. You cannot let go of ego without recognizing ego as ego first.

The greatest challenge in phase two is that our beliefs and the beliefs of most other humans come from living under ego’s authority. Because most humans are under ego’s authority, the world appears to live by ego’s laws. However, the world does not live by ego’s laws. The world is a reflection of how we use attention.

This is very, very important to remember in phase two, so I will repeat it again:

The world appears to operate according to specific rules, because people believe those rules. The world does not exist, meaning it has no power or authority of its own. It is a reflection of what we believe and give attention to.

For this reason, we are perfectly safe when we receive intuitive guidance that goes against the rules of the world. By trusting intuition, and by letting go of any obstacles that stand in the way of that trust, we learn that our experience in the world can be written by another author-ity. That’s how we learn that the world is not real. That’s how we awaken to consciousness as what we are and what everything is.

In order to intuit guidance, it is important that you are not attached to any desire or specific outcome. For example, one who hates to work may imagine guidance to quit her job. However, if she pauses to do root cause inquiry before quitting, she will discover the underlying motivation and realize that ego is the author of that idea and will be the author of the script that follows, if she takes that step.

That shows why pausing and asking ‘why’ is very important in phase two. It also shows why it’s important to let go of all of your individual desires. If you let go of everything except your spiritual aspiration, you can trust that your guidance is pure. If you have mixed desires, your guidance will have mixed authorities. However, a commitment to root cause inquiry to discover underlying motivations will help you to sort that out.