Whenever fear arises, we have a choice about how to face it. We can project it onto someone or something else, we can lie to ourselves about what we are feeling, or we can surrender. Only the last of these three options is healing.

In today’s reading, most of the apostles project their fear onto one another. Since that is the situation in the moment, that is the situation that Jesus addresses through his teaching at Passover.

Peter denies his fear, so Jesus points it out to him. Jesus wants to help Peter discover how Peter lies to himself. As Michael Langford writes in The Most Direct Means to Eternal Bliss, “Right from the beginning, the ego’s preservation strategies have to be dealt with.”

Jesus also experiences extreme fear in today’s story. However, Jesus faces fear with surrender.

Surrender is letting go of one’s point-of-view, one’s will, and one’s identity. In the final surrender, one also lets go of the sense of self-existence. Listen to what Dr. David Hawkins says about the final surrender in this video: (The tip continues after the video.)

When we practice surrendering our ideas and our positions in daily life, we are preparing ourselves for the final surrender. We need this practice. If we cannot surrender our political opinions, for example, we will not be able to surrender our sense of self-existence at the final doorway.

One way to prepare for enlightenment is to embrace opportunities to surrender. Have the thought in mind, “Let go of self. Let go of self. Let go of self,” and watch for opportunities to let go a little more each day. Typically, whenever there is conflict in your life, there is an opportunity to let go of self.

In addition, we need to learn to be with fear instead of projecting it or denying it. We also need to learn how to recognize fear, because fear hides under other emotions, like anger.

As we learn to accept fear with openness, and as we learn to surrender more and more deeply, we prepare ourselves to embrace enlightenment.

Today’s reading tells two stories, one that highlights thinking as a guide and one that highlights intuition and spontaneity as a guide.

The first story is about Judas’ decision to help the chief priests arrest Jesus. The interesting thing about the thinking revealed in the story is that it appears reasonable under the circumstances. Let’s put ourselves in Judas’ position and look at his thinking from his point-of-view.

While sitting on the Mount of Olives earlier in the day, Jesus revealed deep truths to the apostles about the world, the oneness of consciousness, and the pure awareness of the absolute, in which the world disappears. This was the first time Jesus shared these truths with the apostles as a whole. He had shared these teachings with Peter, James and John while on a mountain retreat with them, and the teachings had scared Peter. Now, Judas experienced that same fear. (Reference the tip for Day 43)

While Judas’ mind was reeling from the newly revealed teachings, he looked at Jesus through that fear and saw what appeared to be self-indulgence. Jesus allowed a woman to massage his head and feet with a very expensive perfume. She told Jesus over and over again how much she loved him as he sat there smiling. It looked like he loved the admiring attention.

Judas’ fear increased as his thoughts went on-and-on about the outrageous teachings from that afternoon and the hedonistic display in front of him now. He couldn’t see clearly. He didn’t know how to tell what was true and what was not true. And then an idea occurred to him: If Jesus was put on trial before the chief priests, everything would become clear. They would know the questions to ask. Given the opportunity to interview him fully, they would know if Jesus was genuine or not.

Remember, Judas was raised to trust the chief priests. This line of thinking made sense to him. He concluded that the best thing to do was to turn Jesus in to the chief priests. Judas didn’t know that the best thing to do while in fear is to rest-accept-trust until the fear passes.

The second story in today’s reading is about the apostles learning to follow intuition. Interestingly, they are also afraid. However, their fear is different. Instead of being afraid of Jesus and the teachings, they are afraid of stepping outside of the thinking mind.

Like most people, the apostles believed that thinking protected them. On this day, Jesus asked the apostles to go into Jerusalem without a plan, and trust intuition and spontaneity to lead them to a room that could be used for Passover. The thinking that arose in their minds might have encouraged them to do something different. For example, the mind might have said something like, “Just go knock on Mark’s mother’s door. She lives in Jerusalem. She will provide a room.”

It can be difficult to trust intuition and spontaneity over thinking and the urge to take control. We can feel like we are stepping outside of safety. However, remember this quote from Nisargadatta Maharaj:

That which sees all this, and the nothing too, is the inner teacher. He alone is; all else only appears to be. He is your own swarupa (true Self), your hope and assurance of freedom; find him and cling to him and you will be saved and safe.

Fortunately, the apostles did not listen to fear. They did not follow the urgings of the mind. They waited to see what would happen without taking the matter into their own hands first, and they were led to the perfect place for Passover. They were led to place that wasn’t associated with Jesus or with them, and so it was a safe place where the temple guards would not find them.

It’s helpful to review the Four Principles of God once again:

First Principle of God – Pure, unmanifest, life-awareness; abstract, unlimited potentiality.

Second Principle of God – Consciousness; the unaffected, still witness. All things manifest are made of this principle; therefore, all things are consciousness.

Third Principle of God – The ongoing activity of creation, which occurs naturally through the interaction of the witnessing principle with that which is witnessed. It is how consciousness forms itself into the many temporary forms that make up the manifest universe.

Fourth Principle of God – Manifestation.

The discussion in today’s reading is about awakening to Heaven, which is awakening to the First Principle of God. It is also about the disappearance of the world. These two—awakening to the First Principle and the disappearance of the world—are not two steps; they are one simultaneous step. Full enlightenment and disappearance of the world occur simultaneously.

In today’s reading, Jesus talks to the apostles about the world as it appears. He speaks of wars, of natural disasters and of discord within families. He asks the apostles to accept everything they see without fear. In other words, he asks the apostles to practice discernment: to let go of their own fearful thinking and let it be replaced by acceptance and detachment.

As A Course in Miracles says:

Seek not to change the world, but choose to change your mind about the world. (Chapter 21, Introduction)

That is Jesus’ teaching. He lets the apostles know that under the most extreme of circumstances—such as arrest and flogging—one has the opportunity to choose his perception, and he recommends choosing the highest perception that one can choose.

Jesus’ teaching is reminiscent of The Code, which we studied in Year 1. The Code says:

The code is ideas, just as all things within illusion are ideas. The code can be seen as specific manifestations in form, can be felt as feelings or can be heard as thoughts. The best way to look at the code is as the potential driver of experience. I say it is the potential driver of experience, because code will only drive your experience if you fully believe the code. Even if you let go of your belief in the code partially, it no longer has full influence over you. The code can only drive your experience to the degree that you believe the code.

… the code is a layered code, and the layers are different vibrational levels of the same basic code. … by choosing another way to see, you are choosing to shift vibrationally to another layer of the same basic code.

In other words, Jesus is teaching the apostles to shift their vibration above the vibration of the world by seeing differently—that is, by choosing a higher perception. When we studied The Code, we learned to choose the highest perception or thought available to us in each moment. In that way, we raise our vibration and even higher perceptions become available to us. It is as Peace Pilgrim said:

As I lived up to the highest light I had, higher and higher light came to me.

As one practices discernment and chooses the highest way of seeing that is possible, one rises in vibration. This is also called purification. At some point, one transcends the vibration of separation. This transcendence is awakening to the Second Principle of God. At this higher vibrational level, one experiences oneness. One sees God—consciousness—in everything and as everything. In today’s reading, Jesus describes it this way:

…you will look out on the world and see the Christ as if it rains upon the earth from clouds held up by angels.

Jesus tells the apostles that when this way of seeing occurs:

…you know that Heaven (the First Principle of God) is near, right at the door awaiting you.

It is as it says in A Course in Miracles:

Knowledge is restored after perception first is changed, and then gives way entirely to what remains forever past its highest reach. ~ Workbook Lesson 336

In other words, the final awakening is beyond vibrational levels entirely, and therefore beyond consciousness, perception and the idea of a world.

Note: If you are interested in a more thorough teaching about the process of awakening to full enlightenment, which is awakening to the First Principle of God, listen to this audio. Advance the audio to 9:30. From that point, the audio is about 49 minutes long.